...

Okay, not a-okay, but avoiding him makes things a little better.

Wow.

All I have to do is avoid Robbie, never see him again, or talk to him again, and I'm a-okay. Even though the last time we saw one another, it was the most horrible I had felt in a really long time, I'm not going to attempt to make it any better.

He still has my comic book.

I guess I can sacrifice it for the sake of my happiness.

So, yeah...

I don't know what has been up with me these past few...weeks, this past month or so...however long it has been that I've been feeling the way I have. The good news is, is that I'm finally sick of sitting around moping and having pity parties. I just don't really know what to do now.

I use to be really close with my family, and all of it fell apart incredibly fast. Or, you know what? Maybe I was never close with my family, and all this being apart from them made me realize it. Either way, it's no fun. I hardly ever see my sister anymore, and she's changed a whole lot. I suppose I have as well. I never see my mother, and when I do, I just kind of ignore her anyway, so that's my fault. And my dad is just really annoying.

I honestly believe that being around here is just no good for me. Kermit is full of suck. My parents work all the time. My sister never talks to me anymore. And I love him and he hurt me so much...But you know what's so funny about all of this? It's mostly all my fault.

I'm getting frustrated and I'm trying not to let it show. I'm just trying to remain aloof. I don't even talk to anyone about any of this and I wish I could talk to someone trustworthy, someone who wouldn't go blab to someone else about it or call me stupid for feeling the way I feel. And I don't want to talk to my parents about it. I just...don't. I just want to talk to someone about this because honestly, I'm sick of having these random emotional outbursts. It's getting old.

All I know is that I'm ready for college. I'm afraid of it, but I'm really excited. And I hope I get my head straight by then. Like I said, I know being here isn't any good for me, because I sit here, day after day, all by myself. And I think too much about the wrong things. And not enough about the right things. I really, really need to get my head straight. And I'm trying.

I could have went to the Half Blood Prince premiere but I thought I was going to Orientation. My family...they've known about this forever, and they had planned out everything last minute. But...no, didn't go. So missed out on it. I was really looking forward to it. So that was something else that made me frustrated. Really...really frustrated.

Eh, this is long enough. I don't know what else to say really.

well well pt2

In regards to my last post.

It turns out that everything that was making me happy was only an illusion of sorts. So, ta-da. All gone.

Just like I figured.

well, well.

Blah.
I've come to realize that you just can't tell some people things. People who just keep prying and prying and prying until you tell them something.... they're just going to go tell somebody else. And, well, it's frustrating. Because it seems that I can't talk to anyone. That I can't count on anyone. And I feel like I'm going to explode into a million tiny pieces soon because I keep everything so bottled up.

I don't know. I've been enjoying myself, I suppose. I've been enjoying where my life seems to be going. I just think that it's all going to be taken away from me. I always have that lingering thought in the back of my mind....I just can't help it. I'm so used to never being truly happy and feeling so lonely, that I'm afraid of getting too attached. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that things that appear to be going well won't last and I'll end up going right back to where I was before.

That, I don't want.

i'm bored.

oh...man.

I can't change. For the better or the worse. I just stay the same. Everytime I begin to change I start become the old me again. I hate it. It's the most terrible thing in the world.

What's wrong with me? Do I have some kind of mental blockage where I'll be just a sloppy pig for the rest of my life, haha? I mean, really?

Ugh....

Ughhh. I want a boyfriend.


....But, I must be patient. Right?

i make no sense.
whatsoever.

BAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

What are you giving up on?

Graduation picture!

Yep, too lame to go get mine taken professionally, so I saved some money by taking one little picture to hand out to a few friends, and doctored it up myself. Now I gotta go give out a few of these bad boys this week to some friends....:D

Anyway, I lost five and a half pounds this week! So amped up about that! Woo :P! And! Chuck got renewed for another season! That show is great, and it's such a simple, character driven show. It's silly. Fun. I love it!

I can't wait until next week! I'm going to King's Island and to a zoo an aquarium with Katelyn, and we're going to have a blast :))))...we're thrilled!!

So, basically--excited for graduation, King's Island, and SUMMER!

YAY!q

My major will be:
Anthropology

Minor:
Sociology

I assume I can do that.

Yeah...I can, I think. :D

YAY!

Now I know what I want to be fo sho!

Tonight wassss

Prom.

I didn't go though, didn't want too. Prom is just something where everyone attempts to outdo another with their $$$ dresses and hair and dates, and then they go get drunk/party and go home or whatever. Pointless. I don't think anyone really considers me part of any 'senior anything' right now, and to be honest...I don't really care. High school sucked anyway. I guess I'd like to be included in some things, especially with friends, but these days it seems the only friends I have is my sister and her friend, haha. And myself. Which is pretty pathetic and sad.

It's my own fault. I'm going to leave all the old behind as soon as possible. I need to stop being so darn isolated! I wish I could get out of my house more often...I'm going to try to get a job as a shaved ice lady :D. It'd be so much fun! Hahah.

Like I've said several times before, I can't wait for college because I'm going to just go do as much stuff as I can and explode because I can't do it all at once. But have fun in the process :D. I want this summer to be fun.

I love my sister, and she can be great, but she's young. I need a friend. A best friend! One who's a little more different than the ones I used to have. I think the friends I have now I have zero in common with. But I still like them all. They're good people. I still want to be friends with them. But I don't consider them 'best friends'. And I'm sure they don't consider me a best friend either. I'm pretty sure we're acquaintances to one another by now. Eh...things can change, though. I'm always up for change. I'll turn it into a positive no matter how bad it seems. And if it's great change, THEN GREAT!

I'm finding my way...

THE INCIDENT

LOST SEASON FIVE FINALE=EPIC

ALSO!

I recently finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife.

And...I loved it dearly. It was a lovely book...so wonderful! If you haven't read it, please, do!!!!!




I have already told Patty to read it :D! So go to your nearest library and check it out. I read it all in two days...just couldn't put it down. Ah! My favorite book now.

Oh...and the LOST FINALE IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!

I am of course having a small little party. Haha. But...not as big as the premiere. My parties for this season are a little backwards, I think. But anywho...YAYAYAYAY! *dance*

ow ow ow

MY MOM SMASHED MY HAND IN THE CAR DOOR!

i'd like to give you the update you haven't had

Ah.

Another rainy day. Well, at least it's not snowing anymore. God, thinking about how I've been stuck in my house, going from hospital to hospital in an immense amount of pain since the beginning of winter...oh...I'm not in an immense amount of pain anymore, though, thank goodness. But, still. I've been stuck in my little house for the most part.

And for the most part I think I've complained to some about it. Not to the extent to where it's very annoying, I don't think so, but just a bit. On the other hand, now that I'm about to go experience things and go decide my future...well, I am very thankful to have spent these couple of months going through what I have and spending this time with myself and my family. I believe it was all in God's plan for me to go through this, otherwise I would have been the same ol' Whitney that you all still know...

Which, of course, you all do still remember me as the same ol' Whitney. And when I speak of you all, I mean my friends, and the people I knew once before I was placed in this difficult situation I was placed in. I've grown out of my old skin, into my new.

I don't expect anyone at all to think that I've changed, but I do hope that they at least sense some of it. Or see it after a while. Maybe only one's self can sense their own inner change? Either way, it does not matter to me if anyone notices if I've changed or not. I know that I have.


I did delete my myspace for good. I have more important things to worry about now than posting pictures of myself that I thought were AWESOME but in reality weren't(That's one thing I've changed.), and even more. I will miss the people I talked to about LOST though ):. I do know Page commented the bulletin I posted before I deleted it, but I don't know what she said. I received an e-mail about thirty minutes after I deleted it saying that she had commented it. I figured that it had said something like 'Again? Doesn't this make the 345938475435th time? See ya back on here in a week!' Haha. Whatever you said, I guess I wasn't meant to see.


Here's an update: I went to the doctor and he told me my eyesight was good. The swelling is disappearing (woot), and I've lowered my medicine again. So all is good with that. I saw Kelli at Wal-mart. It was a little awkward...I guess it's because I haven't seen anyone from school in such a long time. I made a promise that I'd visit everyone once before school lets out. I think it'd be fun. Maybe I'll get a little something to let everyone sign...since I didn't get a
senior book. I would rather have that over anything else. Unless, of course, it's memories. Then again, I didn't really get to have that many memories this senior year with everybody...

I have a few options for what I want to be now. I'm still not sure what I want...I need to talk to an advisor at Marshall about everything...
But, here's what I've chosen so far that I'm interested in: experimental psychologist, forensic psychologist, something to do with law and chasing around people and kicking their butt--FBI?, something to do with theology, philosophy, music, language, religion, etc,--I could be a teacher/professor or work in some sort of organization...there's other options I'm sure, and then I like the idea of working with people in tv. Not an actress or anything..but maybe..a writer? That I'd love! And that last one is very unlikely. But yeah...that so far is what I am interested in...
I know I've made one friend for at least one year at Marshall...HE'S MY PREACHER! Haha. Well, I suppose he'd be at least an acquaintance. Which is good. That way I'll have someone I'm familiar with. He's been talking about our church a lot lately and to be honest, I need to go back....
I may just do that tomorrow.

So...there's my very, very lengthy update for ya. Sorry it's kind of the same thing as always.

love,

w.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS


I RECEIVED MY FIRST SCHOLARSHIP!


Eets about time!

challengers

:)

1. If I ever decide to publish a book/novel/poem/whatever, I would use a pseudonym. 2. I know a little bit of Latin and French now (not enough to impress anyone, trust me), and some Spanish. I want to take classes in college to improve.3. I want to visit each state at least once and spend a week or more there and go outside the country before I die.4. I wish I could live a thousand lives, drink the elixir. There's so much to learn, and unfortunately it's impossible to learn it all in one lifetime. I guess the beauty of it all is knowing that what you learn you learn for a reason, right?5. I'm usually a very strong person. I don't let what most people find upsetting get in the way. Sometimes it's a great thing, sometimes it's not.6. My perspective differs from most, not all, people around here. I enjoy it. 7. I think I'm destined to be alone. Not saying that's necessarily a bad thing. 8. I think I am finally beginning to figure out what I want to go into when I go to college.9. I'd love to go on a missionary one day.10. Last, but not least, family is the most important thing to me, besides getting ready for my own life (I don't mean for that to sound egotistical, but hopefully you get what I am saying here.) I want to become closer with my father's side of the family and continue growing with my sister, father, and mother. AND I LOVE LOST (:

In a month, what did I lose?

18.5 pounds in total.

I suppose that's pretty impressive....for a fatty. At first, I was losing a lot. I lost three and a half pounds this week...which was shocking, seeing as a I ate a piece of birthday cake at Katherine's party D:. But, I did really well, I think.

I want to lose sixty more pounds by August...which will be very, very tough to do and I don't think I'll be able to do it seeing as I'm now averaging three-four poundings a week. To lose sixty pounds by August I'd have to lose at least twelve pounds a month. And...well, if I lose three pounds a month, it's not good enough. But, at least I'm losing and not gaining anymore :DDD...right?!

I feel so much better, though. I'm participating in this horsepower challenge thing for the Slimdown Challenge as well, and it seems like it'll be fun. You have to compete against others...whoever walks the most steps wins. So it'll be kinda funny.

I'm really nervous about my eyes, too. I still see floaters and all every now and then. And I can't help but think that maybe I have some other horrid condition, sometimes, because of other symptoms I'm experiencing. I guess I'm a little paranoid. Not a hypochondriac, though. No, not that.

So yep...18.5 pounds in a month. Two pounds away from twenty, which was what I was aiming for...but oh wellz. I'll just keep eating healthy and exercising. I'm just trying to wrap my mind around it being a lifestyle change instead of some short diet, because...I mean, after I lose the weight, I just cannot stop 'dieting' obviously.

So, now...I am going to go rent some mov-ays and go work out.

Update soon (and hopefully it will be more well written and I'll have a little more time)

'bella'

god closed my eyes

now i can see


----that was the answer.

oh my radda!

Haha :D.

What to talk about...

Okay, I've lost another five pounds! Totaling twelve pounds in two weeks. That sounds right, I've been working my butt off! I'm excited!

Anywho. I've been dreaming quite a lot about bumblebees. Several times...every night or so. It's weird. I decided to search around for what it could mean.

I really only found two different meanings.

"Seeing bumblebees flying around means that you are wasting your time with some unimportant matters. A bumblebee is not a good sign, because the pain they cause is bigger than any other bee does. Take this dream also as a warning that you may have to watch out for "false" friends that may "sting you"."

Hm...interesting.
Here's the other.

"To see a bumblebee in your dream, is symbolic of distress and coming problems. "
Great.

Well...got to go exercise. Later.

Hmm....

I have a lot to say to people but I think it's better if I keep my mouth shut.

lsdkfjalskfj

hi mom.

pow wow YEAH

Topamax is making my hair fall out in incredible amounts.

Not good whatsoever...it's really scary. Everytime I take a shower I cringe. Not because I'm fat either, lawlz

I bought some bioton vitamins so I hope they help with that. And HOPEFULLY I won't have to be on the topamax for too much longer since I am losing the weight.
I went to the Operation Slimdown meeting today, and in one week I lost seven pounds!
I was completely shocked...wasn't expecting that, whatsoever.

My dad also lost seven pounds, my mom lost five, and my sister lost two. But my poor sister...she hasn't been able to do much, her knee bothers her so much. And apparently she can't sit out in gym while running because the teacher 'doesn't care what notes we write, she cares what the doctors write'....I guess we can't help it if we can't get to the doctor everyday to ask if she can make it to gym or not? Either way, she lost two pounds which is awesome :D. Haha. I'm really proud of all of us...we are all trying really hard.

I'm still getting some headaches but they're not horrible ones or anything. I go to the doctor soon...to get some blood work done to make the medicine isn't causing any harmful side effects. I'd die if they were....D:

I'm really excited about workin' out though. I'm enjoying it. I'm feeling a lot fuller when I eat too...which is awesome. And I'm amped up for college :DDDD. I cannot wait!
It's going to be so weird and fun and alsdfkjasdlkfjsldfkjsldkfjsd :D I am really excited about the dorm room part, too...It's going to be fun decorating it with Patty, haha. Hopefully we won't have too many differences. But, I think we're both pretty good on agreeing on each other's certain terms so I think we'll be fine...

Oh...by the way...did anyone get invited to that governors thing in Charleston? I am sure you did, but are you going? It's some sort of Gear up thing? I guess I am going to go. I get an awesome gold medallion apparently, haha.

I think I'll walk over to Crystal's sometime this week...maybe wednesday, because tomorrow I'm going to be busy...and I think I may be for a little while on Wednesday, too...but not for a long time. So yeah, probably Wednesday, or maybe Thursday. I miss my buddiez.

Well..I'm going to end this now. I gotta get up a little earlier than usual to work out, haha.

Blah.

oksdlfjd

i'm so interested in learning about the past and thinking about my present that i forget to think about my future.

and right now, my future is what i need to be focusing on.

it always comes to this. should i, 'go with the flow of things?' or should i, 'make things happen?' maybe i'm so analytical of myself i just let life pass me by.

all i can do now is think. daydream. somebody can ask me something, and i won't hear them because i'm off in my own world. it's getting scary. it's partly due to my medicine i am taking, so that's a relief, because i thought i was just turning into a zombie.

all i can do is hope that when i got marshall, people will take me in. if people don't like me, i can just start to beg for friends. like, stand on the streets with a sign saying "in dire want of friends" or something.
i don't know what it is, but i'm just the WORST with making friends and keeping them entertained. maybe it's because the friends i have now, we don't have a lot in common. what's sad is that the people i have stuff in common with, or seem to, are 30 and 40. how does that happen?
what, am i 30 or 40 years old inside, or something? maybe i am...
maybe it's because i seek someone who can tell me things i want to hear. maybe i hold my standards too high.

i like talking to people about these kinds of things but i don't know anyone who likes doing that. or i don't know anyone who feels comfortable doing so.

all i know is that i don't want to be the person i was back a couple of months ago.

maybe people are out to get me. sometimes i do think that, but then brush it off. Then, something happens to make me think it all over again. am i paranoid? maybe a little. but isn't it a good thing to be just a little paranoid? i'm not so paranoid that when someone glances at me i automatically think they're going to kill me, or anything.

today was so pretty out. i love this weather. i walked a mile with my father today, and in a couple of days i'm going to inez to join that weight loss program. it's actually called 'operation slimdown' which is even funnier. you get a t-shirt so that's pretty great. haha.
i know i'm going to lose the weight. (hopefully i don't jinx myself) but, i'm doing great. exercise wise, eating-wise, everything...just really good. i've decided to just go by weight watchers points because it's really simple. and then i can exercise 4-5 times a week, walking and the gym. i'm already lowering my medicine. so that's good news, because the more weight i lose the more i can lower my medicine. but...i just hope my brain doesn't swell anymore. if it swells then i'd become blinder D:. and i don't want that. but, i'm really trying to lose weight. it's hard not to weight myself every few days...i'm trying to weigh myself just once a week so i can see the progress that way. my mom's buying the wiifit, haha. i don't even know if that works, but it'll be fun either way, and get me off the couch/away from the food and up and moving so it's gotta do some good.
the transition from incredibly fatty foods to incredibly healthy foods has been a little hard but i'm doing okay. when EVERYONE in the house is dieting it makes it much easier, that way there's no fatty foods in the house. before when i tried to diet, i was the only one, and it was hard.

well, i guess i'm going to watch some tv with my sister and play some games (she's begging me, here, haha). update soon.

love,
w.

weetwoot

I'm happy to say I've lost fifteen pounds :D!

I'm aware I can lose a lot more...I've lost this just by stopping all pop and changing my eating habits very little.

Oh, and I'm not exercising all that much either...D:

The only exercise I'm getting is walking around in Wal-mart and other places for hours helping my mom grocery shop because I'm afraid she'll get sick. And I'd rather be there for her then...ugh, my aunt. Honestly.



But, the good news is that I'm joining a weight loss program, me and my mom on one team, and my dad and sister on another. It's something over at Inez...some kind of Biggest Loser type deal which makes me lawlz. But, at least you get the gym at a very cheap price for three months and you win prizes and have the chance at winning $500. Oh, and losing weight. So, those are all pluses. Haha.



Doctor's visits as of late have just been...bleh, lately. It seems like I go and they tell me the same thing over and over again. Which is a lot better than getting bad news, though, right?



I read a book over the weekend I bought at the dollar store in the mall. It was called Eleanor Rigby. It's not the greatest book, but I liked it anyway.



Scholarships suck. I'm so confused about all this college stuff ):! Blehhhhh. I got my application in for the Higher Education one thanks to Amber (Crystal's sister) I had no idea about it. I probably missed a buttload. I DID miss a buttload. Oh well...I guess I'll just get student loans and all and pay it all back. It won't be that bad, hopefully.



Finally found some new shoes that I liked and were comfy and durable. I took Page's word and tried New Balance...haha. I cannot wait until it gets warmer. I wish I could go on a huge vacation. The vacation I wanted to go on so badly...the one I've been wanting to go on for five years now, it seems everyone else is going on this year. It sucks. But, I've decided that if I lose a lot of weight, and I'm fit enough to hike three miles to the ancient sea where people believed souls were lost, then me and my family will go. I'm saving up my money for that now. I really want to go. Obviously. If I've been waiting five years to go...



I want to be an anthropologist or an archaeologist or something of the sort. Anything like that--I want to be. I don't want to be a professor, or so I think, so I'd prefer joining some sort of organization instead that pays well. That's what I want to do. I like everything about it...and there's SO much to learn. You basically go to school your whole life. And I don't mind it, because I feel such a strong passion towards it. The idea of going to med school for 8 years? ehhh. But the idea of going to school every now and then and taking tests all your life to learn about the world and the people that live in it...that is something that interests me. I'd never be bored.



I finally met up with my friends the other day. Or at least some of 'em. It was fun. I hope to do it again! I miss hanging out with all of them. Really do.
I'm supposed to meet up with Patty, on Tuesday I guess, to talk over our Marshall stuff. She called me yesterday but then got a beep and never called back...so I guess she'll call today. I'm really excited for college...it's going to be a lot fun :D.

Hmm....this is long enough and my tummy's rumblin'. I'm hung-ray. Mhm.

Love,
W.

last night..

psalm 23 led to elohim.
elohim led to william blake.
william blake led to heironymus bosch and utopia (sir thomas moore).
which i know are both relevant to LOST.

I got pretty excited over that...
Happy LOST day :D!

Anyway, I'm going to the doctor today to take more pictures of my eyes. Wooo. So amped up for that.
Not.
But, at least it'll be over with...I just hope I don't have to go for a bunch of testing afterwards. Plus, that doctor's kinda scary. He starts talking...then starts yelling...it's really weird. Haha.
A little amusing to say the least.

Anyway, I just wanted to post a short little blog before I left...probably should get going now.

love,
w.

weetwoot

I'mmmmmm goin' to Marshall!

80 percent sure, at least.

How is it, that...

I find out from my doctor in Lexington that I am partially blind. That I have no peripheral vision.

And on the way home, I see the most amazing rainbows. Two of them. I wikipedia'd it. This is what it said:

More rarely, a secondary rainbow is seen, which is a second, fainter arc, outside the primary arc, with colours in the opposite order, that is, with violet on the outside and red on the inside.

And that's exactly what I saw. It was a backwards rainbow...haha. But the real rainbow...it was absolutely breathtaking. So bright.
And I thought...wow. What if I go completely blind? I've only seen one rainbow in my entire life, this is my second. I haven't seen what the world has to offer, yet. I haven't been to Hawaii. I haven't been out of the country. I haven't been camping yet. I haven't seen the world! What if I lose my vision...how awful that would be....right?

Now, when I wikipedia'd the rainbow, I scrolled down some and stopped and this painting stuck out to me. No lie. I read it.
This is what it said:
The Blind Girl, oil painting (1856) by John Everett Millais. The rainbow – one of the beauties of nature that the blind girl cannot experience – is used to underline the pathos of her condition.

What's even stranger about this painting is that there's two rainbows in it. Not just one.

Anyway...

I didn't even get a picture to remember it by, because my batteries were dead. I only have a mental image...but I'm plenty happy to just have gotten to see it, trust me! It was very pretty.

Isn't that strange, though...? Maybe it's some force of the universe trying to tell me something.
Or maybe it's God. I don't know.

But, the next night, after The Office, I decide to watch 30 Rock because it looked like it was going to be good. So, I did.
And guess what? There was a blind woman! Haha. Maybe I'm looking a bit too much into it. But, what if I'm not?
And then after watching it, I was asked by someone if I had watched the episode. I never watch it. But I was asked anyway. That could just be a coincidence.

But the other stuff...is it all connected? I feel that it is. It's just too strange not to be. Is God trying to show me something? Is someone or something else trying to show me something?

Do I sound crazy yet?

Good.

Because I'm not going to get anywhere without letting go of my comfort zone and letting loose of some normalcy.

liar

"it takes one to know one".

Think about it.

i received a phone call yesterday and it just seemed totally off.

The weather was WONDERFUL today! I cannot wait until warmer weather...

I want this dress!

http://bandlu.com/product.asp?item=vict

I should just reconsider going to prom to get that dress, lawlz. Then go to prom in it. And everybody would be like 'YOUR DRESS IS SO UGLY OMGZ'

At least it'd be comfy...I would like to find a really awesome dress to wear, but I don't like spending a lot of money on one night. If I was rich maybe...

I think I might do it.

I really like that dress, haha..

SIR/VAY!

1.How are you? How am I? I feel just fine. I'm looking forward to several things. I'm ready to leave Kermit, West Virginia. Actually, I'm ready to leave West Virginia, period. Anywhere is better than here. The only part I'll miss is my home and the memories there with my family. Home is where the heart is, they say.

2.Who was the last person you hugged?I gave my father a great big hug before he walked out the door for work.

3.Look to your left, what do you see?Danny on a ladder. He's putting in a new ceiling fan. It's about time we got a new one.

4.Where do you like to be the most?There's no certain place, but usually...outside. 4 AM and out on the beach, just watching the waves and thinking. Or in water at night. Or laying on concrete (that is a bit uncomfortable) looking up at the stars at night. I don't enjoy doing those things with people who don't appreciate them as much, though. So mostly, I do these things alone.

5.Whats your fave film?Can't say I have a favorite film. I want to watch a lot of new ones though.

6.What does the last person you commented on myspace mean to you?I can't remember who I last commented. I think it was family. So, they're family. They mean a lot.

7.What did you last laugh about?Last night, my sister and I were laughing pretty hard. We were talking about all of our favorite shows and making fun of all the characters....you just had to be there.

8. Where was your default took? It was taken in my bathroom. Yeah, my bathroom has to be the weirdest. Dark blue and lime green? Mhm. If I could I'd go back and change it. But it's too late now. It's not that bad. It makes good pictures sometimes.

9. Whats the first thing you look for in a girl/guy? I always thought that I looked at appearance, but I actually don't. From upon meeting one guy, I barely sought out his appearance. I wanted to see what he was like. I didn't find out much, though. Anyway, that's something that makes me happy, because...so many people turn down others because of their appearance. They're probably missing out on so many great guys and girls. It's sad.

10. If your still in school, whats your fave lesson? I'm being homeschooled currently. My favorite lesson would be literature if we'd read more of what I liked.:D

11.What do you work as / want to work as? I'm leaning towards psychiatrist. But, something along the lines of FBI would be pretty cool. I also like writing. And archaeology seems fun too.So, if there's a job that has all of these things mixed into one, THAT'D BE GREAT.

12.Do you play video games? if so, which is your fave game?I play video games every now and then, it's not something I'm crazy about, though. I play Super Smash Brothers with my sister and it's hilarious.

13.Who never fails to make you laugh?My dad and sister :D!

14.What are you listening to right now?The clanging of metal and bolts and nails.

15.Who did you last have a sleepover with?Sleepover?I haven't been to one in forever.Could be because I've fallen off the face of the Earth.

16.I bet you miss someone, who?!I miss no one, sorry.17.Are you happy with your life right now?I am happy. Content. I'm at the end of a point, getting ready to move to the beginning of another. Starting over.Does that make sense?

18. Why did you last get upset? Uhh...I think I felt bad because my sister stepped in dog poop. And she was really upset because she thought she ruined her shoes, but she didn't. Then she hurt her ankle.

19. Who was the last person you texted? Don't text. Probably never will...

20. Who do you live with? My family. Amey, Thomas, and Katelyn.

21. Do you like living with them? I love living with them. Of course it can be annoying and frustrating at times (:. But they're my family. They've been there for me more than anyone else has been.

22. Whats your mood right now on myspace? It's enlightened. I tried changing it. It freaked out on me. I refreshed it, tried changing it again, freaked out on me. So I thought it wasn't meant for me to change it for some reason and left it at that.

24. Did you realise that there was no 23? Nope.

25. What does your profile song mean to you? It means that I love Frightened Rabbit madly.

26. Who did you last shout at and why? The phone was ringing, couldn't find it.So I said "Katelyn! Where's the phone OMG!??!?!?"

27.Are you normally a happy person? Yes. Because I tell myself to be.

28.What was the last thing you went to see in the movies and with who?I haven't been to the movies in a long time. The last movie I watched was Eagle Eye.I want to go watch more movies.

29.Whats your fave food?Chicken. Turkey sandwiches.And I love port wine cheese. I don't care how many people says it's nasty. I love it.

30. Are you in love? I am not. I don't have the time and patience to be in love at this point in my life, anyhow.

31. Do you remember how you were 3 years ago? Three years ago...yeah.

32. if so, does it make you cringe? Sure, a little. But it also makes me proud to think of how far I've come today.

33. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be? I'd be with the cast of LOST :D! Just once I'd love to meet at least ONE OF THEM.

34. Do you have any blogs on your myspace? I sure do.

35. Whats your fave thing in your room? Hm...it's probably the stuff on my dresser.

36. Is this quiz boring you? No, it's served as some mild entertainment.

37. If you had one wish, what would you wish for? Oh come on, everyone knows this one. I'd wish for more wishes.

38. When was the last time you lied? Probably yesterday.

39. Are your lips chapped? A little bit.This darned cold weather!

40. Any last words? Hm. If you've read this far, wow. Kudos to you, pal, kudos to you.

by the way..

this blog has turned into something completely different than what was intended, hasn't it?

the little prince.

season 1-4 I disliked Jack. Sure, he had his moments (that I liked him) but most of the time, he annoyed me.

But season 5, season 5.

Tonight's episode was just...great. I loved it. Sure, I love the mythological parts of the show, and all the AWESOME twists, answers, questions, and connections.
But going back to the characters when needed always gets me. Always.

This episode I already began connecting with Jack. And if you know me you know that's crazy. And I get the feeling that something horrible is going to happen to Sawyer...I don't know why, but I get the feeling. And I loved the scene with him seeing Kate helping Claire give birth. His face was just...sdfklasjdlfjksdf.

There was plenty of other things that were great about this episode too, but I'm not going into that because it'd take FOREVER!

So, I love the writers and LOST and The Little Prince was awesome.

I can't wait until next week...

I LOVE LOST SO MUCH I'M SHAKING!

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*hyper spasms* and it's five in the morning!

okay.

I'm taking being homeschooled for the rest of my senior year into deep consideration.

jughead.

Boy oh boy. I slept in until four today...
And I'll probably stay up until five in the morning again. Just like the past few weeks.

I've also got to finish my senior project. I have no idea if Ms. Sammon's is going to be here tomorrow, but I should probably finish it tonight just in case. It's about Lewis Carroll. I would have preferred to write about Kurt Vonnegut <3. He was an awesome man. I would have loved to have met him...too bad he died...so it goes.
;)

I haven't done much today. Woke up, ate, then got on the computer to check my stuff just like everyday. Tried finding some new music I thought I'd like...didn't have too much luck. I just sort of sat around all day. Today was a really lazy day for me.

I watched this interview on Letterman with Evangeline Lily...she's great! She talked about how she's allergic to the 'vog' and the sun in Hawaii. Then an awful surfing incident...ehh.

But LOST came on tonight. It definitely had a different feel. But, every season begins with a different feel that I have to get used to. And, coincidentally, everyone seems to agree (at least, from what I've noticed.) Tonight's episode was great and I loved it. I won't go into it, because I'd end up writing a whole five paragraphs, haha.

I guess my mother e-mailed a Christian radio station and asked them to pray for me and all. That's pretty sweet of her. They e-mailed her back and said they were praying for me. So that's nice of them.

Hm. No exercising for me today. Yeah, I suck. And like I said, I have been lazy allllll day. I really like going outside and exercising though, but with the weather all icy and rainy...it's pretty impossible.

And thanks to Juliet Burke (actually, I was considering learning it before...but isn't it a pretty dead language?) I want to learn LATIN EVEN MORE NOW.
They offer it at Marshall.
I think?
:D

That'd be sweet. I want to learn: Latin, French, Russian, and German.
Probably not going to happen. But at least two of those languages would be really cool. I should probably brush up on my Spanish.

I need to finish my senior project before it gets too late and I get distracted.

Always,

Whitney

ice ice baby

It's so cold.



My room is the worst. I know this is bad, but I've been sleeping in until around...three. Well, I was so cold this morning that my teeth chattering together and my shivering woke me up at 11 and prevented me from getting any more sleep...grr. I was not a happy camper :P.



It wasn't a lot of snow...just ice.

And because of all of these icy conditions I had to postpone yet another one of Dr.Hunt's appointments. I bet that man is beginning to strongly dislike me, haha. I have to go next Wednesday, then I go to the UK next month, on the 11th...unless there's more snow, of course. Sigh. Alllll the way to Lexington. What fun.Oh, but it is a bit crazy that the doctor I'm going to see in Lexington shares the same name as Dr. Chang/Cheng on LOST :D...har, har.



Anywho, I cannot wait until it warms so I can actually get out of the house and exercise. I'm really looking forward to going out to hike. Once it begins warming up, once/twice a week I'm going to go to Cabway Lingo or Logan...somewhere where is possible to hike, and...well, hike!

I need some good shoes so badly...ones that aren't bad for my feet. All I have is converse and flats, and now, I'm starting to get into heels! I need good shoes. Haha. Actually...I'm probably just using that as an excuse to buy more shoes....:D.



I've done pretty well with my eating. I am proud to say that I've stopped drinking pop completely. I haven't had one pop for three months...that's saying something for this gal. But, in exchange for soda, I now have this INSANE addiction to iced tea, chocolate milk, and sunny d. It's bad. Real bad. I haven't been eating too many sweets either...I've been eating a lot of...turkey bacon? Yeah. Weird, I know. I actually should be doing a whole lot better with my eating but I'm getting there.



Uhhh....I have a lot of crap to do. I don't even know where to get started. Not going to school has kind of got me into this phase where I'm just 'taking it easy' and not getting anything finished. I'll have bouts where I'm like "Yes! This and this is finished! Way to go me!" Then I'll stop. Grr...

I can't even think correctly today because I haven't had enough sleep...hah. My thoughts are all scattered and everything. I need to get this show on the road though, that's for sure.

Hm...I'm sort of kind of new with blogger. I played around with the layouts for a little while. This is the best I can do with right now...it's not as great as I'd like it to be...but, it'll do. For now. Be warned that I change the way things look a lot.



Always,

Whitney

First blog, so I guess I should introduce myself.

Maybe you know already know me...maybe you don't.

For those who don't, my name is Whitney Butcher. I'm new with blogging. I've never really done the whole blogging thing besides posting random things on myspace, including stories and poetry and those sorts of things.

I started this blog and named it "Kicking it right in the face!" because a couple of months ago, I was diagnosed with something known as pseudotumor. If you don't know what this is (I had no clue when the doctors told me I had it), click on this link: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/pseudotumor-cerebri/DS00851

I've been through a lot in the past few months. Don't worry, I won't bore you with that. I'm scared more than you know, and it's incredibly hard to remain optimistic but I do. Because it could be worse, and compared to what other people are going through...it's really not that bad at all.

But, it's still pretty bad. I do need to take care of myself. The first thing I need to do is to take some of this pressure off and lose some weight. I'm really hoping that beginning a blog and writing in it every day, or every other day, will help me keep up. I hope to meet people along the way. I've always wanted to lose weight...but now it's not a matter if I want to or not, I have to.

So, perhaps you'll enjoy keeping up with this blog. I'd like to have some support, though. Honestly, the only people who have given me any serious support is my mother, father, and sister. When I thought my friends would be there for me...they weren't. And I'm not one who needs to be 'babied'. I'm a big girl, (no pun intended) and I can take care of myself.

So, maybe you want to lose weight. Please, why don't you join me? I'll need all of the help and support I can get, and I am sure you'll be the same. Or, maybe you were diagnosed with a pseudotumor, too and need someone, just like I do, to talk to about it. Maybe you just want a friend. I'll also be your friend! I guess I'm beginning to get a little cheesy, huh?

So that's what this blog is all about. Me kicking this pseudotumor in the face, along with my fat!

I'm excited to begin this. I'll post soon.

Always,

Whitney.