Tonight wassss

Prom.

I didn't go though, didn't want too. Prom is just something where everyone attempts to outdo another with their $$$ dresses and hair and dates, and then they go get drunk/party and go home or whatever. Pointless. I don't think anyone really considers me part of any 'senior anything' right now, and to be honest...I don't really care. High school sucked anyway. I guess I'd like to be included in some things, especially with friends, but these days it seems the only friends I have is my sister and her friend, haha. And myself. Which is pretty pathetic and sad.

It's my own fault. I'm going to leave all the old behind as soon as possible. I need to stop being so darn isolated! I wish I could get out of my house more often...I'm going to try to get a job as a shaved ice lady :D. It'd be so much fun! Hahah.

Like I've said several times before, I can't wait for college because I'm going to just go do as much stuff as I can and explode because I can't do it all at once. But have fun in the process :D. I want this summer to be fun.

I love my sister, and she can be great, but she's young. I need a friend. A best friend! One who's a little more different than the ones I used to have. I think the friends I have now I have zero in common with. But I still like them all. They're good people. I still want to be friends with them. But I don't consider them 'best friends'. And I'm sure they don't consider me a best friend either. I'm pretty sure we're acquaintances to one another by now. Eh...things can change, though. I'm always up for change. I'll turn it into a positive no matter how bad it seems. And if it's great change, THEN GREAT!

I'm finding my way...